4 more days to Life...

Cas I no SUPERMAN, I hope you'll like me as I am :)

Finals tomorrow.
Too saturated to studyyy... GAHHH :(

Rest my case...

EMO ALERT

I never felt the need to express myself that much before. Shit happens. I am down. I lost the sense of belonging. Just when the year is about to end, oh great, can't we have a happy ending? I thought I found the right place. I'm wrong all this while. Maybe its just me. Yes, it's always me. One night, it made me realize that all this while I am walking alone, not with You. Come and think again, I do not have you all this long. Remember you say worrying that we will not get along? I guess you are right. We talk, laugh and do things together. Honestly, are you emotionally attached to me? as in friend la. You don't know how left out and hurt I feel. And most of the time, I'm jealous. I always wanted to tell you this but too embarrassed and ego to. And its stupid right? Oh well, its coming to the end. A part of me is happy. I don't know why. Whatever it is. I love you and will make sure you are not going to be "forever alone". Haha..

We will find a better group and look back at the group we have now like how we always look back at our previous group. What the... LOL. Group ohhhh group. Silly much?
Anywaysssss, the memories we ALL have will always remain inside us.
Friends are friends. We got our own goals to chase. I'm gonna walk through this and Lord, stay with me.

I really do love you guys, so damn much.



Y am I shooooo negative ?

a belated "sugar cube"...

there is always someone out there who dislike you no matter how hard you try.

in the beginning i thought i could handle it. i tried to ignore it. i act all cool and strong but the truth is i felt really left out. the fact that my used-to-be-best friend is going against me really break my heart.

the thought of her disliking me for no certain reason hurts me.
maybe i really did something wrong but i don't have the courage to confront her.

however, things are different now.  i received a note during the LLDS (AIESEC Seminar) that had change my perspective. His message somehow makes me feel secure. The note he wrote for me totally melt my heart away. 

You gave me the best "sugar cube" ever! Thank you and sorry for giving you the 5 letters. "B.I.T.C.H."HAHA.

i can't say that i'm way stronger now. i can't promise you that even if the world go against me i will still be alright. there will still be times i break down. but at least i know, i am not alone, there will be you.

i pray that this friendship will always remain.
Sometimes i think this is all God's plan. He took several friends away to give me one true friend, an angel that i could count on. i thank God for that.  i thank God for you.

i know i hardly say this kind of cheesy stuff or show how much i love you. but i hope you'll know that when life is hard on you, there will be me right beside you.

FUNNEYYYYY !

Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend. 

we shall go UK and graduate together kay?  ;D

people around us...

Random pictures during Mr J.LO's class : Me & Die. She's so awesome but i am awesomer?

hi there!

first of all, sorry that i'm gone for awhile. ok. maybe not awhile, for a long time.

i'm busy with... erm.. life?

currently i am very caught up with my upcoming blogshop. its not open for business YET and i am already super excited about it!

right, what i'm going to write about today is cool/badass/aggressive people? ( your pick )

to many, cool ppl are bad ass ppl.

... and i really don't get it.

swearing and being so damn open about sexuality is not cool, well at least for me.

and and trying so hard to be bad ass like cursing or doing things you actually don't enjoy makes u look pathetic.

smoke, only when you enjoy it. (this concept don't apply to drugs)

date, only the person you truly love.

and curse, only when you mean it.

don't make your F word look so cheap.

what? what did u say? i am one of them?

fine. u got me. i tried to be "cool" but it doesn't work out as i tot.

i ended up having this dude coming up to me and said ... BEING SO AGGRESSIVE AND BAD ASS IS NOT COOL.

oh wait, not in front of me, its on Facebook. How cool is that? haha

but i sincerely, deep inside, i wanna thank this guy. (i hope u r reading this)

he didn't do what other ppl would usually do. . back stabbing.

i actually don't realize that i am "OVERLY AGGRESSIVE". i tot i am just.. "aggressive".

i know growing up with 2 boys is not an excuse for acting like a douche.

anyway, to my victims, i apologize for all the beat up and nonsense you been through.

i promise i won't do it again. well, only if u would STOP HARASSING & EMBARRASSING me. haha.. wait, no, i am serious ! no hahas!

ok ! its already,4 in da morning. i gotta go, nanights world !

i don't mean to offense anyone. truly sorry if i did.

have a wonderful life. love u all? ;D

wad's wrong?

is it just me or what?

my blog seem to be very lagging...

oh dang! :(

A battle...

i hate mirrors.

i hate waking up.

i hate my hair too..

so, i cut the fringe and.. awesome.. its worst now.

i can't fit in and i don't give a damn..

(wait.. really you don't give a damn? u sure?)

i wish to be as hot as her..

or as graceful as her..

or maybe as talented as her ..

but never me.

my room is in a chaotic condition.. just like how messed up i am.

i want piercing. tattoos are pretty.

wow... i'm changing, too fast.

i'm losing my grip.

beware, i'm insecure.

Books...

I found a new way to deal with your pain. Is by nerding yourself!

It works for me.. I have been sinking myself into the-most-boring-subject-in-the-world book.

I'll be too tired to think after that.

I have really rough times. If only I were a boy. Emotionless animals.

I can't explain myself why either.

The thing in my skull is going off the hook!

Blame the hormones.. again..

I should sign up for Muay Thai classes !

Nothing related to the pic...

CNY.. Where u meet up with all yr close and far relatives.

"TAI KOR LUI JOR LO"

"LENG LUI OHHHH" (they are only being polite)

..thats what they will say. Just like the KFC advertisment.

Grandma said at the age of 18, tats the time u shine the most!

The prettiest you!

After than you'll start to grow old gracefully!

DAMN IT! I'm 17 going to be 18 but still don't feel like I'm shining at all?

where's the fireworks?

I wanna be beautiful! I'm not ready to grow old gracefully yet!

No! There's nothing wrong with me. I perfectly normal.

STUPID HORMONES CHANGE!

CHILL YOURSELF WOMAN!!!

Journalism...

I want to produce better "stuff"..

I'll make full use of the library..

Call me nerd :)

Bloody knives...

Tie them up and make beautiful patterns all over their bodies with a knife..

enjoy the bleeding sensation u demons!

Take a the bloody knife n stab right into their eye balls!

Finally, when their hearts are about to stop..

Get an ambulance.

Demons should take more than just dying!

Why should man expect his prayer for mercy to be heard by what is

above him when he shows no mercy to what is under him?

Taylors Street...

Stupid public transport!

I'm exhausted!!!

Messi...

y u no neat?!

I wish to just sell it all on E-BAY!!!